Lately, I haven't been myself at all. I can't even specify what's wrong with me, because what Isn't? I don't know what to do anymore, about anything. I've fucked up one too many decisions, scared to make any new ones. I'm scared of my future, because I'm scared of myself. I'm fucked up in every possible way, mentally, physically, every way. I've weakened. That light in me is dimming every day, I can barely find it anymore. Always holding a smile when I'm upset, yet I can't smile anymore. My mind is all fucked up, there's no other way to possibly describe it. Every little thing I've done, added up to this moment now, this is the point where I'm a wreck. I'm broken.
I can't find the light.
And I give up looking.
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